乱

去看了电影《大内密探零零狗》， 凭良心说一句，真的很狗，很难接受香港无聊喜剧滥到这种地步。。。看来要black list这类无聊喜剧了。。。

问题出现了，我发现我开始有点逃避的迹象了，好像有意无意地在逃避。。为什么会这样？不是希望要和好的吗？怎么变成这样，那以后怎样去面对？？

迹象显示出把自己带入悲情角色，是受害者，充满委屈，扮可怜，也混合着一点点复仇的心态，希望它会了解。。。。到底是怎样阿，怎么会那么复杂。。。

看来需要一点思想沉淀才可以，希望能回味当初的感动与快乐。。很庆幸知道她家人都那么的支持着我，要我不要放弃，有时难免会禁不住胡思乱想，我那么的好为什么你就不会好好珍惜呢。。。错过了怎么办？我那里不好？那里做错？莫须有的被判死刑。。。情何以堪啊。

你是虔诚的教徒，很理智，我知道，但总是觉得说如果太虔诚的话，就变成了死板，凡事以教规为依据，虽然说宗教带领信徒向善，我总不相信说圣经真的可以帮你度过所有困难吧（理智分析，没有歧视或藐视成分）。。。宗教可以作为精神的依归，人生的依靠，绝对可以，但不可能是一切。。。

我会给自己时间，不会轻言放弃。。。我会尝试感受会最初的感动，用真诚来感动你。。有你家人的帮助，相信可以事半功倍。。

人生的转变

有听过herbalife吗？
一家拥有20多年历史的保健饮品公司， 也从两年前就开始在我身边徘徊， 但我都没去尝试。。。

一次偶然的机会之下，终于开始尝试，两个月之后，体重没有明显的下降，大概是我没有跟正统的饮用法有关吧。。哈哈。。

不过也开始有一点成果了，体重下降了1.2公斤（没有很多）。。重要的是呢，我的心脏脂肪从原本的高风险群（15%）下降至13%，这也是我饮用这产品的主要原因咯。。。

昨晚和一个老朋友的晚餐给了我一个惊喜，也让我感动，让我见证了一个人的改变，从原本安于现状到充满干劲。。原来他也加入了herbalife。。哈哈。。是缘分吗？？

看着他，反而觉得惭愧，因为一直以来自己都在想，没有付诸于行动，也佩服他的勇敢，因为他勇于改变，加油。。。。

在他的盛邀之下，老实说自己也频为心动，也会认真考虑。。。毕竟也已经挥霍了不少青春，人啊。。总要为自己的存在负责吧。。。

要打拚咯，不能再虚度光阴咯。。。加油吧。。。

人往往只会在无助时，才会想有搏客来疏解内心的郁闷吗？ 不懂，但我知道我就会是这样。。

也许是不相信别人，也或许是没有人可以真正了解自己在想些什么，也又或许连自己也没办法搞懂究竟什么原因吧，充满着矛盾的人生。。。

人生有太多目标想去达成，奈何没有条件去实现， 想去旅行，没有旅费；想找个好伴侣，凡事有的一起分享，奈何找到的问题多多。

没有想过要求什么，疼你，爱你，不想你受伤，太累。。。有错吗？

我得到什么？ 冷淡的回应？？没有共鸣的感情能够长久吗？我不知道，也不想去懂。。。

为什么就是不能对我好一点点？从没有奢求过你送礼物给我，只要每天有个小小的问候我就已经满足了啊， 很难吗？很难做到吗？

我害怕接下来是我不懂怎样去面对你。如果是因为要应酬家人才找我，我宁可你早一点睡算了。不想要应酬式的问候，完全没代表什么意识。。

谢谢你妈妈不断的帮忙，也许我不是你宣泄的right person，但我希望你可以把你的问题都告诉妈妈吧，一定可以和你一起面对。。。

加油吧，自己，明天会更好。

memory

The first day we meet at the mines expo fair....

The first dinner we eat together with belinda

The day i send u home n u treat me a cup of neslo

The first day we date, U accompany me go n buy jacket for dinner....

But i miss up ur birthday cause i am at johor....

The first day i tell u my feeling, n u accept me...still rmb the time my feeling n happiness...

hope this story will be continue non stop....i really hope...

6/6/2009

6/6/2009

This can say as a very special day for me...totally can say as i lost all my things today..

Wat i lost.?? I can say that i lost my lovely girl today...i also confuse..

U tell me tat start from fews weeks ago the feeling for u to me start to reduce or maybe fly away..

Thats nothing i can say because feeling is juz a feeling, nobady can control, what my sad n heart pain for is the feeling we build for 6 months would be that kind of fragile...

Even can say as one day morning wakes up it suddenly dissapear...

But lucky that u still gv us a chance to rebuild it, u say every thing still maintain..but wat is maintain? really nothing diffrent?? now our relation become complicated , is friend or couple?

i really dono.......maybe i should leave this place for a while to calm down....

Outdoor road show

Finally today will be the first day road show for sg.wang....wat a terrible day for that

Full of pelik pelik people n a sun tat can burn every things out.sweater a lot n not comfort a all..

wat to do? things still going on n work stilll need to continue..

And you say is me that think too much for that case, n it is nothing n not something..

So..i choose to believe u dear, i dowan there is any misunderstand between us..

Jealous

Today morning accidently see ur phone msg...sorry dear

notice tat u got msg with a guy call jeremy izzit...?

is tat guy ur past bf? 

Since when i become so much of jealous and sensitive? 

Why i wan to think so much about tat n could't i juz believe that you are true to me?

Izzit i scare tat will be hurt or i juz scare tat u lie on me....

Am i need to ask you wat happen or try to be nothing happen..?

I know something might not be as wat i am thinking...maybe juz him wan to know how r u recently only..

Dear i am not a type of guy that full of romantic and dump to know how to talk well to make u happy..

but...i treat my love n feeling very serious not juz simply paly paly..

I believe you dear, i believe  you know wat you doing and true love btw us...

This cases willl be blow away along with this post...love you dear..

Tuesday

Fanally one of my fran also collegue are leave after 6 months worrking...

And once i will become alone n unsupport on this company..

haiz..wat should i do by now?

茫然

why does nowadays seems like many things happen to my career??

many things wanna make a decision...

Always feel like i am been protected like tat since from the first job i attend..

protect by frans..

protect by boss...

each time also seems like hv a good chance to make my career execellent...

but izzit really tat kind of things happen?? 

I don't think so...

wat happen to my sims??

izzit character already changing???

自私

请原谅我以自我为中心点。。。

没有确实了解你的感受，及你所面对的委屈和压力。。。
一味的认为是我不好及做错。。

原来我不在你身边的一晚你受了那么多委屈，回想你是多么的难受，也难怪你心情不佳。。